Why I'm a Witch
I remember reading that one of the usual qualities of Aquarians is that we are aloof and can be cold and dis-connected. I wanted to say, "No, that's not me!", but the more I thought about it, the more I realized that it can be very true. It seems that my subconscious has the ability to withdraw and cut-off from any situation that starts to feel dangerous - especially emotionally. I've been aware of that for several years and I think I've found a flip-side to that coin. I can clam-up quickly in a protective fashion when dealing with personal things, but when it comes to the interactions of the whole world, of humanity as a whole, I am utterly bare nerves.
Ani DiFranco has a poem called Self Evident which is about the 9/11 tragedy. Every Single Time I listen to that poem I break down. It's almost as if I feel every bit of sorrow and horror that accompanied that day, along with all the pain and fear we have felt about it since. There's this open channel that allows the pain of Everyone to come through my heart, and perhaps it's a type of healing. Perhaps, as these things are felt and worked through by individuals, the collective consciousness heals a little each time.
I'm not sure what this means in my life yet, but if I can be of service by helping to transcend pain, I'm more than up for it. I was also thinking about the way we tend to try and define ourselves, how we look for what makes us "stand out" from the rest. What if we thought, instead, about what part of the whole we are? We're certainly all individuals and very unique, but that shouldn't make us feel separate.
For me, working with the Craft has shown me a multitude of ways to connect, to remember to be humble and to work towards healing things NOW, HERE, on THIS EARTH. I'm not here to try and appease or impress some far off idea of Deity, I'm here to help co-create a world like we've never even imagined. Here, now, in this life. I believe in peace and love and brother/sister hood. I believe in ONE, in ALL. I believe in the potential of each and every one of us to do something great that will, in some way, help all the rest. I have been fortunate enough to learn the way to commune with nature, with Deity in a way that feels personal. It is possible to make these changes. When people say that intention is powerful and that thoughts are things, these are not concepts to be taken lightly! We are literally making the world we're living in. It's called 'consensus reality' because, by consensus, we've agreed to this. Then we wonder why there is suffering, war, hate, rape, hunger, why there are so many have-nots. It's because we've grown up here and we've let ourselves believe that this is the way it is and it's too difficult to change. We feel powerless. We think it will take too long, there are too many things in the way, we're too small to affect change. (At least, these are the things I feel weighed-down by in less optimistic moments.) That belief is a part of consensus reality, ironically. So we believe that this is the way it is and we believe that we are powerless to change it.
I urge anyone who feels dis-content at the state of the world to learn more about the power of thought, intention, the Law of Attraction, The Secret... whatever label you choose, this principle is available in many forms through many traditions. And believe it or not, this is "magic". These are the principles used by witches for centuries to help us through our lives.
Consider that 500 years ago, someone who saw a light-bulb or a car or an airplane would surely have thought it was magic. They had absolutely no explanation of or experience with that type of thing. Now think about our future. If we decide, it could be a place where we can clean up a gulf with focused intention. Where crime and hate are in history books. Where we are capable of things we can't even imagine right now. We're here at a pivotal time in human history and it's impossible to ignore that. I have faith in the light that we each carry within us. I know that our species is very tarnished with greed and plagued by tunnel-vision, but once these tendencies are shaken loose, there is no limit to the things we will be able to do!
I've never heard this version of the poem, it's much more musical, which makes it a little easier to listen to.