Thursday, November 26, 2009

Which Moment am I Living In?

I've been thinking of my ability (or lack thereof) to manage my time. Alanis Morissette said once in and interview that she sees time management as being synonymous with energy management. That makes so much sense to me. I've learned that I'm not great at multi-tasking when it comes to upcoming events or plans. Whenever there is a big holiday or I'm planning my daughter's birthday party or planning to take part in a big massage event, I find it all but impossible to see beyond that event. There is a voice inside that keeps telling me, "You just have to make it through this ________ and then you can make other plans." I'm working at an event this weekend and I've found that I can't seem to start planning for Christmas because a part of me- or most of me- is totally tunnel-vision-locked on doing well and making sure I have everything I need. In one way this is good, I'm giving attention to planning. However, how much of me has been living in this weekend since I signed up for the event? And if so much of my conscious thought is going to something that hasn't happened yet, how much of me is here now?

4 comments:

  1. You are not alone! Your focus is a success strategy, and let's face it, we really want the significant things to be successful, but such focus can take away from the big picture in other areas that aren't so important(I'm speaking for myself here!). On the other hand, multi-tasking can feel like I'm being torn into too many pieces. We are a results-driven society today. It's not all bad; but doesn't feel balanced. "Life is a journey, not a destination." is what I know in my head, but it's living it everyday, with my heart and soul that is the challenge. I work on this issue ALL of the time.

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  2. I agree. I know to a certain extent we need that focus so that we can think things through and plan but like you said, it takes away from the big picture. It's a balancing act. What drives me crazy is when I'm trying to be her now and my brain is still making lists and plans and worries for that upcoming whatever it is. It's the perfect season to try turning that voice down and reminding ourselves to be mindful and enjoy the moment we're in.

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  3. I wish that we had little on and off switches on the part of our brain that just won't calm down and stop thinking! I guess that would be a little too convenient and we wouldn't learn and grow as much, but at this time of year, I wouln't mind a temporary one! Still, I keep on trying! Again, it's nice to know that I'm not alone and you describe the dilemma so well.

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  4. It's amazing to realize how noisy our brains can be. I was sitting in my apartment Monday night with candles lit and nothing on. I was working on making prosperity insensce for a group I go to and one of my spirit guides suggested I put up a circle around me. So I did that and called the elementals silently. I suddenly slipped into an almost meditative state and realized just how loud my brain had been. It was like a parade crashing through my living room! Finding quiet in there is not easy but certainly worth it. If you can hold the quiet for more than 30 seconds, you're my hero!!

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